Given the experiences you had as a child sound terribly traumatic, and that you had to suppress these, and pretend everything was okay, it is understandable that revisiting these events will cause strong emotional reactions, and it is okay to feel overwhelmed sometimes. I would also be evaluating you for Post-traumatic stress disorder, or Complex Post-traumatic stress disorder. Anxiety is one of the most common presentations for these, and inability to make decisions is a key feature of generalised anxiety.
The two gold standard Treatments for PTSD are Trauma-focused CBT and EMDR. Both have good efficacy, and evidence of maintained outcomes at long-term follow-up. I think the research says that EMDR Seems to have more long-term effect.
Revisiting trauma can be highly detrimental if not done in the correct manner. I would not advise clients to be sitting thinking about these things by themselves, without structure, guidance, and without at least FIRST being shown the techniques to calm their responses.
It is good that your psychologist has identified the developmental nature of your symptoms. If the emotions are ones that stem from childhood experiences, it is important that your psychologist has some understanding of the developmental stages you were going through when these events occurred, and how this may have affected your development into adulthood.
Good on you for seeking assistance -- you need to go back to your psychologist and be really frank with them about your concerns. Your caution is completely reasonable, however don't give up just because it's painful, but rather make sure that you have been given the right techniques and support to manage your responses.
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