You indicate that the depression you have suffered for the last 5 years has made you see that you are not happy with your relationship with your husband. Exploring your depression, which it’s what you seem you have done, can help you identify what are some of the things you have not been dealing with one of them being your marriage, thus, the statement ‘I don’t need him around to be happy’
Your statement seems to imply that you have a level of certainty about what you need or don’t need. However your question also implies an uncertainty eg: ‘… my unhappiness is aggravating my depression, is it possible? One of the things I would suggest in order to get more clarity on what you feel or sense is to reflect on how it is that your relationship aggravates your depression. Is it that you don’t want it? Is it that your husband represents something that you don’t want to see?
Some questions to ask:
Was I ever happy in the relationship?
Why am I in this relationship?
What makes me stay, what would make me leave?
How have I tried to express my experience to my husband?
Those are only some of examples of questions to ask. Of course there might be others depending on your situation and emotions experienced in relation to your marriage. Having said that, it is common that depression might be aggravated if we become aware of something and do not act to improve it or remove it. At a less self-awareness level, an unfulfilling relationship can aggravate your depression.
Since you have experienced depression for 5 years it would be a good idea to see a counsellor, if you have not done so already, to use as a sounding board about your reasoning and motivations/desires. Also to discuss what is like to be you in the relationship, and to help you visualize what it might be like to be you without the relationship.
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