I'm 27, married and have two children. I'm a stay at home mum during the day but work at Coles doing night fill durin the night. I have suffered from depression since I was a teenager but I feel like the reason I am depressed is because I also have really low self esteem and am a bit socially phobic. I try do hard to change the way I think and talk to myself but still deep down I just hate the person I am and wish I could be better. I've always felt awkward around people and I hate the way I look. Even though my husband tells me all the time I'm beautiful I still look at myself and just feel ugly. I go to the gym a few times a week which helps make me feel better because sometimes I think if I look normal well I can just blend in and people won't notice how stupid I am. But It only works to a certain extant because I still feel stupid and awkard all the time.
I also seem to be more depressed when I am working. I can't seem to cope. But also feel lonely being stuck at home.