It is difficult opening up to anyone so it is not surprising that you feel this way. Perhaps there is a different way to view this situation? By opening up to your psychologist you are asking for help and opening up to the possibility of healing rather than to defeat?
When we connect with someone it is easier to keep afloat because we no longer feel alone. The old saying "a problem shared is a problem halved" is true. Burdens both physically and emotionally become lighter when we have somebody helping us to share the load. The thoughts and fears that you have about sharing your thoughts and fears are perfectly normal.
You have done a great job in expressing how you feel in asking this question. Perhaps that is the way to start writing how you feel. Write it not with the intention of it being for the Psychologist but write it for you.
Start with some questions such as "how can I?" "What am I afraid of? "the things that I can't say" "the things that I would like to say" and then just write what first comes to your mind. Don't edit or second guess just write it as it comes. After you can reflect on what feels right and then you can take that with you to your next session. If you are worried that you might change your mind and not take it to your next session you could always post it.
Another great way is talking through them but just with you. Have you got a smartphone that you can record on? Perhaps you have another type of voice recorder. Sit in the room with you and your thoughts and talk them out loud. Then you can take them to the Psychologist and you can listen together.
Perhaps you have some favourite songs whose lyrics express exactly how you are feeling they too could be shared.
Let me assure you, sharing your thoughts with your Psychologist is not an act of defeat it is an act of courage. When we ask for help from the people who have the training and the skills to help us with our particular problem not only is it sensible it is a way of achieving stability. During those times when we feel buffeted about my our emotions and circumstances in our lives. A bit like being on a boat when we don't want it to drift we put down the anchor to keep us safe.
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