Are there people out there that care about depressed people and hear?

Dear Kim0711
Yes, people hear and care in their mind in hearts only, not reality. They may even feel guilty that they not able to help you or me.

But people do not want avoidable burden like your or my depression. They think and talk behind our backs that it is our entire fault, that no one can help us if we do not help ourselves. They happily accept the cordon of isolation we build around ourselves and justify themselves by naming us strange.

Mental health professionals work with us because they are paid for it. It happens that they are the only people who talk to us; therefore, we believe they are good and caring. But they are just like any other people. They won’t tell us judging our situation hopeless, they just throw us out. If we unable to pay they throw us also out (no wonder, they have businesses to run). Depression is treatable - lip service.

I do not blame anyone; let others be as happy as they can.  I blame myself. They are starving people in the world and (among others) I do nothing to help. There is my family, like me, but worse and I do not help. My solution is to seek care no more. Hard and lonely life.

Take care.

Hi Grant, thank you for your time and input,I do apreciate it.I honestly don't know what my phicologist is up to,I go and talk,other then learning to meditate and putting a rubber band on my wrist and flicking it when I go off somewhere else in my head.I ‘m not to sure if she is actually doing much.All day I had negative thoughts going through my head,I started dry reaching again.I kept trying to switch it off,but! they kept coming back.By the time I got home I wanted to o.d,the only reason why I did’nt was there was'nt enough tablets to do it.It's that bad at the moment, I've had to take the day off work,I can feel myself shaking inside,i've made 2 mistakes at work in 2 days,we are'nt aloud to make mistakes,my boss said we have to address this isue,and this is more stress,it would be easier to die.I have no help at home,I 'm here so I get to do everything.I feel worthless.

Hi Kim, My heart goes out to your pain. I know how lonely you feel & I know how hard it is. It's me again the chocolate, wine & coffee addict. I see myself in a well climbing to the top I have been doing this for 10yrs & just when I see the sunshine outside something comes along & kicks me back down again & I get up again & back onto that ladder & start all over again. And it's tiring, draining & knocks your confidence for 6 but you get back up again. Have you told your psychologist you feel about her. I'm not sure how long you have felt like this but you need to keep doing what she says & find other ways, meditation does work I use it a lot. Looking back I think I stood at the kitchen sink every morning with the knife at my wrist for about 8 months. Even now when I go to bed I don't want to wake in the morning. I have taken lots of pills only to be very sick & sorry the next morning. I don't like it & I'll be damned it I'm going back there. I wouldn't shower for days so I got my hair cut short & I have to wash it each day to make it look desent for work (that problem solved) I am now working on getting up early enough to have breakfast again. Work on one bad habit at a time. My negative thoughts took over me as well so I wrote down nice comments about me so when I have those negative thoughts I then pull out my “nice me list” and read it, when I have a spare moment I read it & add to it. Work is tough but keep at it, you have to get up & go to work, not going to work is your really bad deal breaker it's not on don't let yourself do this. You are strong & tough & can get throught this. Read books about inspirational women who have done the hard yards. I had nothing on what they had been through. Like Grant said getting through each day is a huge acheivment & I tell myself that when i'm going to sleep instead of I don't want to wake in the morning,