This is a really tough time for you, especially after so long dealing with these issues and finding that so many attempts at getting help have not worked out. That does not make you a failure. Your feeling that way is an illusion your mind is creating - it feels real, but isn't. In exactly the same way that people will swear that these two squares, A and B, are different: http://www.moillusions.com/2006/03/colored-squares-illusion.html
I am loath to criticise another professional, but it seems to me that the counsellors you have seen have not tried to understand how you want to change. I'm sure you all agree on the direction of the change - more engagement with life, more confidence in your own decisions and actions, and more healthy actions like eating well and socialising. But what they haven't done is work with you using your ideas on how the changes can be made.
There is plenty of research to show that people tend to get better when their own preferences are made central to the therapy. It's a shame your former therapists haven't implemented this practice with you.
For example, from what you've written I'm sure the reason you want to avoid medication is not because you are “resistant” or “non-compliant” or even severely depressed (which you may be, but it's not the “reason” for your choice), but because you value having a sense of self-efficacy. Turning your situation around without relying on an external “mechanical” aid would be a validation of your efforts to date to solve your problems.
Charlotte's suggestion about trying ACT could work out for you. If you want to get a feel for what ACT is like, I developed some podcasts for RMIT some time ago that use ACT exercises. They're not therapy per se, but you can get an idea of what it's like: http://emedia.rmit.edu.au/communication/
Also, Simon's suggestion about blood tests is worth following up. There is a substantial proportion of people diagnosed with depression who actually have thyroid conditions that mimic the symptoms of depression .
Good luck and be patient.
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