Dear Vivienne colegrove
thank you so much for your reply you are right when say grief anger and because it's ongoing every day all year around it's like how many times can you keep trying to get over or fix or get use to the same pain problem you know.
im on endone tremadol tried all melds side till got a combo that worked and didn't make me brain dead or dis functional you know.
and that alone makes problems itself any one can take pain killers till numb and pain less but when live in a country town and single father that has school runs 40 min away and a child that depends on you brain dead is not an option .
so back to square one take enough pain killers that your on the edge of what you can handle physically and mentally and yet that combo causes me to blow off steam by yelling being angry and cranky at myself every day.
any suggestions on the exact type of person I could talk to that's not a physio or general doctor as I have tried those two and feel it's more mental and how to deal with each day that I need help with and it's becoming more clear on here as I write yet I can't even talk to any one this much past 5 years.