I have what doctors like to call triggered depression anxiety. I was medicated all through my teens and came off medication with the help from the only doctor that would help and a counsellor, and would use other methods to control my anxiety. For years I haven't been able to properly express emotions, especially crying. I have had a number if events occur in the last 3 months that have caused me to feel loss of control that I'm crying and stressed and its happening at work. Been using herbal calms and also sleeping tablets ( also herbal) in extreme cases my partner will give me half a Xanax ( 5mg normally ) to ease. I have explained to new doctors I do not wish for anti depressants but for other methods... Or something I can use temporarily to gain control... They told me to talk to a psychiatrist but then refuse to give me a number or referral as they think I will just abuse addictive drugs after I admitted to the half Xanax, they think I'm just after a Xanax prescription. Help?