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Depression

I feel like i am stuck, going around in a circle my whole life. No hope no future. Ive just decided to stop seeing my counselor because most of the time i would come out more frustrated and confused than before. I keep feeling like its not the answer im looking for but she thinks i might be scared of change, that i feel hopeless and dont believe anything could help. I have friends who try to listen and stuff, a boyfriend who continues to want to be with me and no matter what people say, i think im not lovable and that no one really cares about me.

I am one of 9 kids and i was sexually abused by my brother when i was young, he now seems to have lots of social issues and apart from him i am the only one in my family depressed. im tired of going through this. I just want to be happy. I talk to my parents amd they just tell maybe i need to speak to someone and then i get frustrated because i paid $100 a wk to see a counselor for almost a yr and didnt feel it worked. I just wish i could be normal